i wonder…
It’s funny how people don’t look for me to chill or don’t invite me to places but as soon as they need a favor, that’s when they fucking wanna know who I am! But my dumb ass always be there for them. I wonder if I wasn’t here, who the Fuck would be the dumb ass to drop everything for them like I would?? Wish I was heartless sometimes, but this is me. The girl w the big heart, everyone walks all over, will forgive someone who did me wrong in a heartbeat, be by someone’s side no matter what, nd give my love to someone that probably don’t deserve it….
Sometimes I wonder if this is even worth fighting for anymore. You playing your games, me with my headphones on with the music one blast. Can’t even have a conversation without arguing. Honestly I think we need to stop hiding behind the lies and the fake smiles on our face.
My feelings for u is so unexpected but I wouldn’t change a thing about it. Everything about u is just so amazing. boy keep doing that thing u do. *butterflies*
Nobody knows the real me. Nobody knows how many times I’ve sat in my room and cried, how many times I’ve lost hope, how many times I’ve been let down. Nobody knows how many times I’ve had to hold back the tears, how many times I’ve felt like I’m about to snap but don’t just for the sake of others, how many times I’ve felt like running away. Nobody knows the thoughts that go through my head whenever I’m sad, how horrible they truly are. Nobody knows me, and thats what I hate the most.
I notice everything.
And by everything, I literally mean everything. I notice when someone stops hitting me up like they used to. I notice when the way someone talks to me starts changing. I notice the little things that people do, and the little things they used to do. I notice when things change, and when it’s no longer the same. I notice every single little detail. I just don’t say anything.
